I am so excited to get back into blogging. It is such a therapeutic thing for me. I just have a few minutes to type up a quick intro but have no fear, I will be back when I have more time. Wait, when does that ever happen? Ha ha.
I am a stay at home Mom to two beautiful girls. Miss O is turning 3 soon and Miss G just turned 4 months. It was not an easy journey to get to this point but every minute and every struggle was worth it. My body basically hated me and did not want to get pregnant. We were finally able to conceive three times. First, Miss O after a year of TTC and being referred to a fertility specialist. Found out I was pregnant weeks before my first appointment there. Due to how long it took to conceive the first time, we basically never went on birth control after O was born. Again, we got referred to the fertility clinic a little over a year after we started TTC baby # 2. Conceived on our own but didn't get the positive test until the weekend after my first visit to the specialist. We lost that baby at 6 weeks, 3 days...10 days after finding out I was finally pregnant again. I was devastated. That was in April of 2012. The next 6 months consisted of Doctor visits, blood work, etc. 3-5 times A WEEK. It was intense. My entire life was just going to the doctor and caring for our beautiful first born.The staff was amazing though and they became a second family to me as we faced this journey of trying for another child. Finally after two surgeries, multiple treatments, etc. I conceived Miss G in August of 2013...20 months after initially beginning to "try." I honestly never realized how difficult it was to want so desperately to get pregnant and not be able to. As difficult as it was to lose that precious baby in April, I would rather go through that experience again than the experience of being infertile. That is how difficult it was for me personally. That being said, I had Miss O to keep me busy and to be thankful for. I had my amazing husband by my side every step of the way. He was once again my rock. Some couples can't take it. For us, we grew closer together as we leaned on each other. It's what we do when we face difficult times and I am so thankful for that. We are SO far from perfect, but we are perfect for each other. As hard as it all seemed at the time, I was fully aware that I had it easier than many women and I remained thankful for that as well. It can always be worse.
Anyway, that is a very brief recap of our journey to get where we are today...a happy, healthy family of four.
My husband and I have known each other for 10 years now. We met through work. We've been together for 6. He is truly my best friend. Every minute I spend with him, I fall even deeper in love with him. He's amazing.
I initially didn't think I would be staying at home full time. I thought I would be working part time but quickly realized that just wasn't the route for us. The time away from home would not be worth the very little amount of money I would make working part time. Although it is exhausting and some days are very difficult, I am beyond thankful that I get to stay home to raise these two beautiful girls. The time is flying by already and I just don't want to miss out on a thing. I have so much respect for moms that work outside of the home. I really don't know how they juggle it all. Then again, no matter what route you choose, there will always be some sort of struggle along the way. The thing I don't have respect for is the "Mommy Wars" but that will have to be a post in itself. We are all moms. We all love our kids, right? So why debate over stupid little things? I'm not better than the next mom because I do fill-in-the-blank. Just different. Different is good. The world would be pretty boring if we all did things exactly the same. So let's stop judging and let's start supporting and cheering each on in this thing called motherhood.
This blog will be for me to blow off some steam, write down some thoughts, share my point of view on things, have some "me" time, and share some funny stories of day-to-day life. I want to document this stage of our lives. I am open for friendly discussion. I welcome it, really. I am not open to nasty debates and judgment. If you don't like what I have to say, go elsewhere. Make your own blog to write whatever you want. I'll probably even read it. I just don't want it here. haha.
Thanks for reading and I hope to be back again soon. For now, I have a very energetic almost-three-year-old wanting my attention and I'm finding it quite difficult to think clearly while she is being her cute little self.
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